O-
Oh really you care
Over it
U-
Universal family
Untimely
T-
Tired
Thoughts
~Vannique S
Advice to help with Life. Advice about relationships , romantic or otherwise. Recounts of travel, including Foodie Reviews. A wide and varied Collection of works of art such as Poetry, Digital Photography, Paintings and Coming SOON VIDEO!! Enjoy!
O-
Oh really you care
Over it
U-
Universal family
Untimely
T-
Tired
Thoughts
~Vannique S
I’m embarrassed to love you so unselfishly, so shamelessly so very aimlessly. For there lies not a future, not a home for my love, not a rest for my weary heart, overwrought from loving you.
Overwrought from giving you every ounce of me inside…dying to be with you on the outside. Incessantly outside your reach. Can’t reach your heart. Can’t reach you by phone. Can’t be in your presence… Someone else calls you home. Alone I roam covered in love reserved for only you.
So embarrassing, because it’s nothing, all my heart and soul, absolutely nothing does it mean to you. I’m ashamed that I’ve carried on, parched, thirsting, for my life my love, untamed yet chained …my flame remains unchanged and you unfazed by my love or my pain, the situation unchanged. I’ve nothing left to lose and at this point nothing either to gain.
I must be insane for loving you so unrestrained without reward … without a hint of a promise in store… without hope for a future… for being in love on my own…waiting for you but to you I’m not home…
Embarrassed and Ashamed
Attached and unclaimed
Delusional, deranged
Crazy in love
I was set to battle an internet star who lived in an underground multi layered mansion. She was deranged, smiling, donning medieval style dress. A high collar with a powdered white face and long red hair. Curls galore.
When the battle ensued, holding her 8 post candelabra with fresh candles lit, she attempted to bait me to chase her further into the lair and higher into the suites of the Mansion. As she donned a mad hatters deranged eyes and empty smile the tips of her hair caught a blaze . Her flight fanned the flames and ignited the artwork in the halls, the furniture, the suites themselves, her taunting was her own undoing and all in her lair.
Here comes 2023.
Here I stand with a complete and whole heart?
How can that be?
2022 Certainly tried it's best to undo me.
I came in with my heart broken in Half.
Cut ties with some decade old Friends
Cut ties with some lifelong Kin...
A farewell to a Fiancé months before nuptials.
I haven't included any trials and test but add them too and long before June.... My heart should've been in many more pieces than 2.
But what have we got here???
I feel renewed
I am at Peace
I am Serene
Happiness suits me despite trials...
I wear a smile despite my test & YES I know the best is yet to come.
Joy is a constant even when things go wrong,
&
I realized I needed all of this to make me stronger.
Strength, I have but not alone. I couldn't have done any of this on my own.
Thank God,
without His guidance...
I would have been just where the enemy wanted me... broken in 2022.
Here comes 2023.
Here I stand with a complete and whole heart.
Fully Armored
&
Ready for the next chapter to start.
I almost Passed out in
that heat
That Sun
up high
Shining...
don't always
equal smile
It can beat down on your
head if you're walking
on miles
I learned to smile in the
rain. Deepened the
divots of my dimples.
Widened the ripples playing in puddles.
Dodged the falls...
and pivoted
It's going to rain anyway...
That feels way better than my tired feet & back
Skin like hot leather under that bright sun that
DRAINED MY SOUL
TIL I HAD REACHED
MY DESTINATION
THE SUN HAD NOT SET
BUT IT HAD SET ME DOWN
I tried to Smile
Blisters on my Feet
Sweat on my Brow
Hand Blistered & Bitten
I almost Passed Out in the Heat
Under the Sun.